I have no excuse not to accomplish my goals.
I had to sit down and write an email to my Coach the other day that I do not wish to write again. The short - I missed a few runs.
The long -
I enjoy running I feel better afterwards...it's just...doing it. I have a million and one excuses but none of them are valid. I just need to do it. I just need to say "drop it all" and just get out there. But, that is easier said than done. I am a Mother of two, Wife, Business Owner, Team Mom and Caregiver. Where does running fit in? How many balls can I juggle and what if I drop them? Perhaps I ought to take up joggling? But, again, it feels so good!
Setting a goal and following it to the end just feels amazing. It doesn't matter how small or pointless it seems to others. It is MY goal not theirs. It's not a big deal to them but it's a HUGE deal me. Yes, I feel like I am going to die about halfway into my training and no one will know until they drive past my corpse on their morning commute but I have to push on...I do it for my kids...I do it for me.
So why do I miss my runs? I lack discipline. I grew up in an unhealthy household surrounded by obesity, overindulgence and quitting. I have to retrain not only my body but my way of thinking. No, it's not ok and it's not acceptable. I need to set an example and break this vicious cycle not only for myself but for my children.
I need to push myself and be pushed.
I need to focus and follow through.
I need to be smacked around when I quit.
I am signed up for my first race on 12/10 and will be running with my Coach, Lesley.
I am also running both days of the New Years Double!