I have no excuse not to accomplish
my goals.
I had to sit down and write an email
to my Coach the other day that I do not wish to write again. The short -
I missed a few runs.
The long -
I enjoy running I
feel better afterwards...it's just...doing it. I have a million and one
excuses but none of them are valid. I just need to do it. I just
need to say "drop it all" and just get out there. But, that is
easier said than done. I am a Mother of two, Wife, Business Owner, Team
Mom and Caregiver. Where does running fit in? How many balls can I
juggle and what if I drop them? Perhaps I ought to take up joggling?
But, again, it feels so good!
Setting a goal and
following it to the end just feels amazing. It doesn't matter how small
or pointless it seems to others. It is MY goal not theirs. It's not
a big deal to them but it's a HUGE deal me. Yes, I feel like I am going
to die about halfway into my training and no one will know until they drive
past my corpse on their morning commute but I have to push on...I do it for my
kids...I do it for me.
So why do I miss my runs? I
lack discipline. I grew up in an unhealthy household surrounded by
obesity, overindulgence and quitting. I have to retrain not only my body
but my way of thinking. No, it's not ok and
it's not acceptable. I need to set an example and break this vicious
cycle not only for myself but for my children.
I need to push myself and be pushed.
I need to focus and follow through.
I need to be smacked around when I quit.
So goals...
I am signed up for my first race on
12/10 and will be running with my Coach, Lesley.
I am also running both days of the New Years Double!
